Desires of My Heart

Psalm 37:4, “Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He will give you the desires and secret petitions of your heart.”

There is truly no greater joy than knowing that you are living a life pleasing to God. Obedience is never easy when your Will is constantly competing with His Will. The sooner you are able to let go and give it all over, the sooner you will begin to see the rewards of your faithfulness. It’s a daily decision. Don’t think for a minute that the moment you get saved that you automatically understand what it means to truly walk out a Christian lifestyle. I’ve received Christ at age 13 and trust that I am still learning and seeking wisdom in every area.

In life we make commitments. We commit to a certain career path. We commit to a partner. We commit to owning a home. However, the most important commitment we will ever make is the one dedicated to our faith walk. It’s what helps dictate all of those other choices we make in life. My commitment to my faith over the recent years has not been an easy road. I’ve lost friends and battled some lonely days trying to understand why this walk felt more like a punishment than a privilege. Despite my feelings I continued to seek God, obey His voice, and perfect myself.

Today, I can honestly say that I’m reaping the rewards. There’s still so much that I want to see manifest but I’m cautious to remain thankful for everything. Every small step, every bit of progress I see, I’m sure to give thanks to Him. Even those things that I don’t see yet, I thank Him because I know that as long as I continue to obey Him and love Him above all, I can’t fail. Over the years, I’ve built up my confidence in myself and most importantly Him. Those that were in my life and didn’t’ support my decision to walk out this lifestyle to the fullest have been replaced with people whose hearts are pure and support this journey. I’ve even been reconnected with someone who is everything that I prayed them to be if God would ever bring us back into each other’s lives. No one is perfect but when you can see the God in them and their desire to be better each day, it’s so easy to love them.

It’s been days that I’ve had to solely pull on faith and faith alone to get through my blogs. I didn’t feel what I was saying, but I was speaking it in faith. I make a decision daily to divorce myself from my emotions. Some days are easier than others but it’s all a part of the journey. I’m so thankful that God kept His hand on me even when I didn’t acknowledge it. The happiness I feel today is something that will continue to motivate me to seek out His Will because I love Him and because the reward is far greater than the sacrifice.

I encourage you to write a love letter to God. Let Him know your heart’s desire and your commitment to His Will to see them come to pass. Thank Him in advance for the manifestation and give thunderous praise because as Christians we believe that we receive all that we ask in Jesus Name.

“Nothings perfect, but it’s worth it after fighting through my fears.” ~ Beyonce