Yesterday, I was just plain angry. Angry because I felt like life was this big game. It felt like God had the world in this big rat race. Each day we try our best to do our best so that we can have His best. Well, yesterday I wasn’t feeling it. I was tired of trying. I said, “God, you know what I need. You know my heart. Just give it to me already!” I had an entire day to be productive, to make calls, to write scripts, to pay bills and you know what I did? NOTHING! I buried my head under the covers because I was simply angry with God.
Now, today is a new day. I’ve wallowed in my self pity long enough and it’s time to fight. I know some of you are taken back by the fact that I’m admitting to being angry with God. Well, I look at it like this, as much as I love my mother, there have been many, many times that she has gotten under my skin. As much as I adore my fiancé, he too can infuriate me to the point of complete silence for fear of saying something I don’t mean. God is no different. My love for Him has not wavered. I just had a moment. Anger is a natural emotion. It’s unrealistic for anyone to believe that you shouldn’t feel anger, it just matters what you do with that anger. Yesterday, I failed. I let it get the best of me. It just seemed like the world was winning. The most ungodly people can afford to put on the most over the top, gaudy weddings; while I serve God with my whole heart, try every day to live a life that is pleasing to Him and have to scrape together pennies to do the most simple, no fuss wedding you could ever imagine. But God… Continue reading “Angry with God”