I love how God uses everyday, nominal occurrences to grab my attention. Let me paint the picture for you. I’m sitting at my writing desk wrapping up Sunday online service when that annoying pop up banner appears with the same pesky alert that reads something like “Update available. Do you want to restart your computer?” The options read: RESTART or LATER. For months, I’ve hit the LATER button continuously irritated that it just won’t go away! It’s not that I don’t think the updates are necessary. I don’t have a particular issue with updating my computer; however, what I do have an issue with is how long it usually takes to complete. When I take time out to sit at my computer to do anything I want to do it now. I don’t think about completing the updates any other time. It’s only when I get that pesky pop up that I think, “I should really do that but I don’t have time.”
I literally had the cursor hovering above the LATER button when I stopped dead in my tracks. Images flooded my mind of my computer taking forever to load, or the video buffering while I’m trying to watch them, or site freezing in the midst of me scrolling. Then the question arises, “Why do you think you have so many challenges when you’re trying to complete a task on your computer? Should you just replace the entire computer? Is it trash or could it have anything to do with those pesky little updates that you’ve continued to ignore over the past few months?”……This is where the moment of sheer stupidity and revelation mix. Continue reading
I don’t know why I still get so amazed at how God speaks to me. It starts with me noticing something that is so common place and seeing it through a new perspective. It’s like I have new or child-like eyes that are trying to process something that, on a normal day, I would walk by without a glance. Let me paint the picture for you…
Everyday I go to work, I park in the same garage. I can admit, I’m not the most fond of the parking attendant and it often drives me nuts when I’m unable to find a space and then forced to leave my key with him. Well this particular day, I found a space albeit a bit further away than I’d like. As I’m walking to the door, I see what I thought was a space right outside of the doorway but as I got closer I realized that someone parked their “toy car” in the spot… okay, okay it was a smart car or something! Very miniature!!! And the first thing I’m thinking is, “they don’t even need that big ‘ole GOOD parking space!!!!” I was so annoyed for no other reason than I wanted to just push it out the way with my big ‘ole “normal” size car! I know it’s petty but that’s just how I was feeling that day.
Little did I know, God had a lesson in all of that. Here’s the picture he painted… Continue reading
I’m sitting here in the wee hours of the morning of my birthday reflecting on my first 33 years of life. It’s crazy ya’ll! I’m going to try to put it into words so bare with me please. Many times, on our birthdays, we reflect only on our past year and give ourselves a “grade” on how well we did since the last one.
Did I accomplish all that I planned?
Am I happy with where I am at this age?
How many more years do I have until I reach “that” age?
Well, if I were to be completely honest I’d say if I measured my happiness on just those questions, it wouldn’t be the happiest of birthdays. Real talk! I know the saying “just be thankful to be alive” but I’ve always been the hardest on myself and I never just wanted to be alive… I wanted to live! Live to fullest! Yes, I haven’t done bad for myself and each year I get better but I still feel like I could be doing soooo much more! I have a feeling I’m not the only one.
So today, after I asked myself those three questions and began feeling a little bummed, I heard God say loud and clear “Think about all 33 years. Don’t start from the last one.” So I did and here’s what came out of my time of reflection: Continue reading
I was driving today across town and took notice, like I always do, of the steady decline of neighborhoods as I travelled further away from the NW section of the city into the NE section. For all my non-Washingtonians, most of NW is the upper echelon area with high priced apartments, boutiques, and fabulous dining options. Most of the NE section is what I’ll call the “Developing” area… row houses, dollar stores, carry outs, and of course liquor stores on each corner. Continue reading
Many different things in life inspire me. Daily I ask God that my ears be sensitive to His voice. A few weeks ago I was watching a webisode called “Red Table” led by Jada Pinkett-Smith. She sat with her mother and daughter and discussed various questions that they each placed in the box for each other to answer. The interview was compelling but the part that stuck out most to me was when Jada’s mother asked her if she held any animosity toward her for having not raised her properly while battling drug addiction. It was a powerful question and the one quote in particular that stuck in my head was when Jada said, “I look for the power and beauty in every situation, no matter how bad it is.” Continue reading
I’m just getting back into the swing of things after enjoying a week’s vacation in honor of my 30th Birthday… yes everyone, your girl is officially over the hill! LOL! I’m embracing it. So in the wake of this huge milestone and just days before we formally give thanks for all our blessings, I find it fitting to list out the 30 things I’m most thankful for on this monumental year. The idea was inspired by someone very close to my heart coupled with my growing gratitude with each breath I take.
Her words were “unheard, unseen, unimaginable, and ridiculous.” I sat in the audience, eyes pierced on this woman I’d never seen or heard of before. She had my attention from the moment she opened her mouth. This woman had a presence that demanded your attention. I loved that her words were intentional. They evoked emotion without any overzealous effort because she was simply speaking truth. Her words were prophetic and they captivated me for almost 40 minutes. Everything she said was powerful, but those words “unheard, unseen, unimaginable, and ridiculous” made my heart beat a little faster. Those words reflected what God planned to do in our lives if we do not remove our heart from Him. I can’t even begin to explain the feeling sitting among my sisters, Jocelyn (aka Indigo) and Monisha, listening to this woman literally speak life into our lives. It was almost unbelievable until I put myself in remembrance of what God had spoken through my Pastor early this year. He called this year, the year that we take our lives to new dimensions. Gone are the days of reaching new levels… we are rising to heights never seen before and it’s solely a result of our obedience to Him. Continue reading
I don’t know about you but I simply can not function in clutter! I am far from a neat freak but I pride myself on keeping a tidy house where everything has its place and when things are used they are returned to their rightful places. Well how many of you know that life happens? One week is just a little bit busier than the next.
It starts with me laying one outfit on the ironing board promising to hang it up when I return but then feeling too tired to do so… and then a pair of shoes is kicked off by the bed. Before I know it, I’m making excuses as to why it doesn’t matter if I throw those jeans at the base of my bed. What’s one more article of clothing going to hurt? Of course, life doesn’t slow down and now I’m looking at a sea of clothes and shoes that have yet to make it back into the closet where they belong. I’ve been trying to get a day to myself to just clean and organize my entire house but I’ve been so overwhelmed by work, projects, meetings, social obligations, and events that keep me away from home on a daily basis. Everyday I come home annoyed at what I see but I’m too drained to do anything about it! Every morning I awake to find that the cleaning fairy has yet to visit! This morning was no different. I woke up feeling so OUT OF ORDER! And then I heard my pastor’s voice saying… “Our God is a God of order.” Continue reading