“Many plans are in a man’s mind, but it is the Lord’s purpose for him that will stand.” Proverbs 19:21
In December 2012, the plan was to dissolve “The BOLD & The FABULOUS” blog, which for me meant my blogging run was over. I wasn’t upset about it at all. Although I loved it, I knew that everything had its season and that we had a great run while it lasted. Now it was on to other things. Little did I know that my involvement with “The BOLD & The FABULOUS” was preparation for me to come from behind the scenes to find my voice and build enough confidence to share it with the world. If you look back to my very first blog in July 2010, you will read all about my hesitations. I won’t drill down on that any more than necessary, but just know that it was not my desire to share my stories with the world. However, as my relationship with God grew, my desires began to take a backseat and it became more important for me to fulfill His purpose for my life. Continue reading
Every time I lose patience in what I know God has for me. Every time I think God has forgotten about my desires. Every time it looks like I’m losing the battle. Every time I forget about the wealth of His love… I will lean on this: Continue reading
So the last time I was here, I wrote about my drive home and how God spoke to me about being prime real estate. It was just another example of how he was using my love for shopping as a teaching tool. Well on that same ride home, He spoke again a few moments later. I guess you could say it was a lively conversation that day. I couldn’t figure a way to tie it all together so I decided to save it for the next week. Sadly, it turned into a month later but I believe the message is timeless and ironically something I needed to read for myself today! Continue reading
I was recently asked what I was giving up for Lent and answered quite frankly, “Nothing.” Having gone to Catholic school for the majority of my life; I remember being taught about the season of Lent and acknowledging the Stations of the Cross, but it never stuck with me. I don’t recall ever giving up anything for Lent nor having the conviction to do so. I decided to refresh my memory on where it all originated and the significance behind it.
Yesterday, I was just plain angry. Angry because I felt like life was this big game. It felt like God had the world in this big rat race. Each day we try our best to do our best so that we can have His best. Well, yesterday I wasn’t feeling it. I was tired of trying. I said, “God, you know what I need. You know my heart. Just give it to me already!” I had an entire day to be productive, to make calls, to write scripts, to pay bills and you know what I did? NOTHING! I buried my head under the covers because I was simply angry with God.
Now, today is a new day. I’ve wallowed in my self pity long enough and it’s time to fight. I know some of you are taken back by the fact that I’m admitting to being angry with God. Well, I look at it like this, as much as I love my mother, there have been many, many times that she has gotten under my skin. As much as I adore my fiancé, he too can infuriate me to the point of complete silence for fear of saying something I don’t mean. God is no different. My love for Him has not wavered. I just had a moment. Anger is a natural emotion. It’s unrealistic for anyone to believe that you shouldn’t feel anger, it just matters what you do with that anger. Yesterday, I failed. I let it get the best of me. It just seemed like the world was winning. The most ungodly people can afford to put on the most over the top, gaudy weddings; while I serve God with my whole heart, try every day to live a life that is pleasing to Him and have to scrape together pennies to do the most simple, no fuss wedding you could ever imagine. But God… Continue reading
Psalm 37:4, “Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He will give you the desires and secret petitions of your heart.”
There is truly no greater joy than knowing that you are living a life pleasing to God. Obedience is never easy when your Will is constantly competing with His Will. The sooner you are able to let go and give it all over, the sooner you will begin to see the rewards of your faithfulness. It’s a daily decision. Don’t think for a minute that the moment you get saved that you automatically understand what it means to truly walk out a Christian lifestyle. I’ve received Christ at age 13 and trust that I am still learning and seeking wisdom in every area.