To Tyson with love,
Last Wednesday, I had to put my dog to sleep. After months of watching him battle cancer, it came time to let him go. It was possibly one of the hardest things I had to do in my life. Anybody who knows me, knows how much I love animals… perfect strangers. So you can only imagine the bond I had with my dog Tyson after 13 years. I got him as a puppy on my 16th birthday. Over the years, we learned each other. He learned my scent, I learned his bad habits… he learned to trust me, I learned not to trust him… around tissue that is! (he loved to tear up tissue!)
I truly couldn’t have asked for a better dog, companion, and friend. He was my heart. Without fail, I knew the moment I arrived at the door, I’d be greeted with a wagging tail, anxiously awaiting a good rub down. He didn’t care about how rough a day I had, what bills needed to get paid, what chores needed to get done… he was only concerned with receiving love and attention from me the second I walked in the door. No matter how bad of a day I had, he was the best escape. He represented a consistent love that humans find difficult to supply… simply because we’re human and all the craziness that comes with being one.
The night my dog was put to sleep, I prayed to God for the strength to get past the sadness. I hate to cry! It seems like such a waste of energy to me. So as I laid there in tears, I felt a peace come over me. I thought about the love God has for me. He’s there ready and waiting for me to acknowledge Him and give Him the honor He deserves. He’s not moved by my circumstances or how I feel, He wants my attention despite it all. He wants to be my great escape. He is a consistent love that no human could ever match.
I know it seems like I’m comparing God to a dog but rest assured I know that there is no comparison. What I am comparing is the simplicity of the love they give. It’s constant, it’s unconditional, and most of the time it’s unwarranted. It’s because of this similarity, and this alone that I believe all dogs go to heaven… and Tyson is definitely running things!!
Tuesday with Bianca
Ok, I’m done! As a dog person (as well), I can not contain the tears and know EXACTLY what you’re going thru. I am so sorry for your loss sis and know the pain won’t go away quickly like some folks may think b/c he’s “JUST A DOG”…we know different. ANd I completely get the analogy. Love u and will be home in a few days. Praying for you and your whole family, whom I’m sure loved Tyson too.
I know you understand sis… It’s hard for everyone right now, even the paperboy! But thank you for your prayers… see you when you get back to the USA!!
Oh no not Tyson! B- I am so sorry to hear that. 😦 I hope you and your mom find peace in knowing he is in a much better place!